This is a tough one. Hmmm. I can’t remember ever reading a book that changed my views on anything. I read fiction mostly and very seldom autobiographies.

I read a book called the Heavenly Man which made a huge impact on me in regards to my faith, and it also brought home why miracles are so few in the western world. The simple fact is, due to medical breakthroughs we don’t need God as much as other countries do. The western world is also much richer than any of the other countries and Christianity is allowed to be freely practiced. The book was about a young man in China, where Christianity was illegal, and it documented all the wondrous miracles that happed to Brother Yun.

I watched a DVD called ‘How Great is our God” now that changed my views on God completely. In fact I still battle with my prayer life because of it. We were brought up to start our prayers with “Liewe Jesus” or in English ”Baby Jesus” and that sort of took the power away, and all my life I looked to God as my equal of sorts but He’s much much bigger than that. I know it sounds strange, but I find it difficult to believe that God who is so Big and so Wonderful and Awesome, Who created the heavens and the earth would spend an iota of strength on my minute little problems and angst.  I know that He does, I know that He will, but my mind is too limited to fathom that He would and could and will, and does every single day. But I know He’s there beside me, even in the midst of my pain and my joy. I can feel His presence everyday. I know He protects me, but every now and again when I start to rationalise with my mind I stumble and my faith waivers.  So I don’t think of it too often and simply decide that just having faith the size of a mustard seed is enough, for Him and for me.