We saw the Nephrologist in the 26th Of October. He’s very happy with my creatine results. I was very relieved, I had to do two weeks of protein loading in preparation, and I can honestly say I have never consumed so much protein in my life! Of course I almost overdid it as it was almost too high, but in the end it was worth it. And I got the green light.

Looks like the transplant will happen in January, if my sister can sort out the Medical Aid authorization, the transplant co-ordinator has been dragging her feet and it’s causing unnecessary delays.

Next step is tissue matching, then a renal angiogram, and an appointment with the Urulogist who’ll be doing the operations.

I have to lose some more weight, my BMI has to be below 30, to put me in the over weight section instead of the obese section, apparently if it’s over 30 I have a very good chance of developing hypertension after the transplant. So work work work it is!

I joined Boot Camp in October too, just in time as the extra protein caused me to gain 2.2kg! I really had to just close my eyes and eat without thinking of the points I was consuming, after all without a good creatine result the weight loss would have been pointless in terms of the transplant.

Boot Camp is awesome! I really enjoy it, I can already run around the athletics field, and I am a lot stronger! On Friday we have our assesment day for this camp and I’m hoping to see a good improvement.

I'm in the black tracksuit pants with the white stripes doing tricep dips

Having a good giggle while working out

Then this past weekend we had an awesome baby shower for Sian.  I am so happy for her, and she absolutely looks gorgeous and glowing! It was also the first Baby shower where I wasn’t always on guard with my emotions, having made peace with our situation has really freed me, and I am able to enjoy my friends’ good news without feeling the sting of pain, and feeling left behind.

Holding Sian's precious bundle

He is the most beautiful baby boy I’ve seen in a while.

Also looking at this photo actually makes me feel happy, I can look at myself without wanting to run away. Losing weight has certainly brought back a little of my confidence, but I still feel gross and obese, and I know I look a tiny bit better, I think it’s just a matter of my mind having to catch up and getting used to myself again, and maybe some self acceptance would be a good idea too. I hope by the time I’ve lost most of my weight I can accept how I look, and not be too over critical, I found that to be the hardest part and in the end, I give up and let go. It would be so tragic and I’ll be working hard not to let that happen to me. But we all know the most difficult part of weight loss is keeping it off.

Then hubby and I are going away for a few days to Uvongo. I miss the ocean and I long for it with my whole being, I love the smell of the ocean and the sound of the waves crashing while I’m drifting off to sleep. DH has been working really hard lately, and he really really needs a break.

Hope everyone has an awesome day and an even better week!